"I Trust in You"

One of my favorite worship songs of the moment goes like this:

You hold my every moment,

You calm my raging sea.

You walk with my through fire,

And heal all my disease

I trust in you.

I trust in you.

I believe, you’re my healer.

I believe, you are all I need.

I believe, you’re my portion.

I believe, you’re more than enough for me.

Jesus you’re all I need.

Not only are the lyrics completely pertinent to my life right now, but I’ve been mulling of the concept behind them for weeks now.

God is shouting loud and clear that I need to trust him. Trust.

I so easily try to take matters into my own hands- my own hands that have no idea how to shape my life, directed by a mind that has no idea or understanding of anything beyond the trivial. How is that a way to live?! How will there ever be peace in a life led by a fallible human being?!

I’m reaching the point where God has been throwing things into my life that I need to trust him for. The only way to learn this lesson is to be forced to experience it. But I am so excited! I can’t wait to see how God is going to challenge me, break me down, rebuild me, and establish my life with a new center where I am able to fully trust him for every single thing in my life.

I’m not at this point yet. I can’t rightly say “I trust in you”. But my prayer is:

“God, help me to trust you! Give me the courage to let go of all I’m clinging to in vain! Help me to fully believe with every ounce of my soul that “you are all I need” and that you are in fact “more than enough for me”. Put truth to the phrase, “I trust in you”, so that when those words flow over my lips, I will believe wholeheartedly in my very being that you are in control. Lord, let me learn to trust!

Amen.”