Weaknesses

Posted on my Tumblr in February:

Weaknesses are so hard to discover about yourself. Sometimes they are such blatantly obvious habits that we overlook them as even being problems.

I’ve recognized some of my biggest weaknesses over the past week.

But harder than the discovery of weakness is the acceptance and the application.

I’m reaching the point where I know that I have to accept that I am a person who strives for perfection, in all that I do and in all that I am. I also cannot stand to fail. Small failures make me frustrated with myself, and larger failures eat at my core. I realize I have high standards for myself, even unattainable ones, and I know I need to change that. I just am currently opposed to and even fearful of the idea of lowering my expectations of myself.

I just need to pray persistently that God will work in me, however painful the process may be. I need to reach the place in my life where I can fully accept this about myself and apply new habit, new thought, and new perspective to the way I live.

God, renew my view of perfectionism and help me to humbly accept my failures.